* Wednesday, August 27, 2003*

im so sick n tired of listening out to explanations...
its like so helping lohz...
seriously im utterly disappointed...
its not onli abt wat happened...
its all abt e trust...
trust between frenz..
i thot i cld trust ya....
i trusted ya..
why in e world wld i tell u all stuff...
tell ya all e tinks tht nobody else noes...
tell u all such cuz i trusted u all as my dear frenz...
but u betrayed them urselves..
i noe u may tink tht i sound unreasonable...
but tik of it tis way...
fancy urself being made a dork of...
e central joke tht u two had to play..
juz as a cover up for e tinks u dun want others to find out...
me bing made a total fool of myself ...
believing tht wat u said was e truth...
i told u abt xin cuz i trusted each n evryone of ya...
for all those of u who noe...
im sure u wld haf felt tht it wasnt mere tinks u cld juz tell anybody...
i felt quite bad e previous day cuz i thot tht i accused u...
i wanted to go up to u to apologise...
apologise to ya tinkin tht i mistaken ya...
u came to me asking me why i asked him sucha qn...
lookin to determined n innocent...
i felt tht i was in no position to haf asked tht since i clarified wif ya...
i didnt reali tink i was rite to probe...
i thot i was sucha horrid person for doubting ya...
but it turned out tht i was right frm e start...
i gave u e benefit of e doubt...
i trusted u...
now all im left is to feel... like an idiot...
like such a moron...
feel so disappointed...
seriously i aint angry....
rite now its far frm any anger...
its all e disappointment....
in frenz...disillusionment...
in frenz...disenchantment...

when sumone actualli gave u e trust...
had faith in ya tht u wunt go ard tellin e whole world...
n thts e same faith tht one believes tht u are also saying sth tht is frm e heart...
not a mere joke or prank...
n difinitely not sth to laugh abt...

u may tink tht im overly serious abt juz one incident like tht...
well tht juz me...
i can tolerate many other tinks...
but pls never ever play wif one's feelings..emotions....
tinks tht are juz heartfelt....
sth close to heart...
muz never be fooled wif...

dun wori....
i wrote all tht juz as to vent my anger.....
well not reali angry now...
much beta....
mabbe juz still disappointed~
~tas
Tas_anne @ Wednesday, August 27, 2003